Babe, why do you act so strange? are you just playing games? dont doubt my love, you’re the one im thinking of. Babe, why do you act so scared? like we won’t go nowhere? you’re safe because you’re the one im thinking of.
travel around, seeing the world. after parties and flirty girls. they bat their eyes and throw looks at me, but in my mind you’re all i see. late night at a dance club i got two left feet but im cuttin’ a rug and if i partner up for a song or two, no girl has got moves like you.
arguments or long distance calls, hard as it gets i go through it all. no matter where i roam you know, my bodies here but my hearts at home. and you’re the one im thinking of.
trust in me, yeah i know that i have hurt you. dont give up on me, we’ve been through this, so please tell me…
Babe, why do you act so strange? are you just playing games? dont doubt my love, you’re the one im thinking of. Babe, why do you act so scared? like we won’t go nowhere? you’re safe because you’re the one im thinking of.
you’re the one im thinking of.
And the grass wasn’t green enough here, after watering it with my tears. I’m not sure where you went, now we are just past tense.
And the snakes, they’re slithering in, chasing me to my end. I cant say where that is, I’m running again.
And the spark never lit up a fire, though i tried and tried and tried. The wind came from your lungs, a hurricane from your tongue.
And I’ll keep your secrets with me, right behind my cheek. Your anger, your anchor, but I’ll sail much further on.
And when I get there, it wont be far enough.
If ever I get there, it wont be fast enough.
I’m a renegade, I always was.
ive decided im writing a book. its not really going to be for anyone but me. well kinda. i dont expect it to be fantastic or go anywhere but im doing it.
this song just fits how i feel right now. been listening to it all night.
nobody gets it anymore.
pretty sure im giving this whole thing about trying to explain it up. i dont even want my phone on anymore. there is nothing more heartbreaking than seeing everything else around you. this was what was all planned and prepared for and now this is where it ended up. these are my favorite nights and times of the year. i finally get one of them and all i wanted to do was walk home. tonight was bad.
play a show in front of a bunch of people, end up crying in the church parking lot again by midnight. this has been an every night thing for the past two months at least. i mean that when i say every night.
this is the first time anything is actually making me exhausted. i went into a store because i needed to buy food. i went in, just walked around, looked at stuff, and before i knew it i was driving to church. i remember thinking out loud in my head “whats the point?” nothing else seems important right now. whatever i was going to buy didnt seem worth it when i got there. nothing does anymore. the worst part is im pretty sure im part of that nothing that doesnt matter.
i was driving the other day and a truck swerved in my lane, and we almost hit. after it passed i thought ‘eh, it wouldnt have been the worst thing if that just happened.’ …. it should never get to this. i should never hope for something bad to happen just to see if it would actually be important. i cant take this forever. this is making me think i deserve all of this, and i actually might.
i dont think ill go on here anymore unless its really important. im probably not going to have my phone on for a while either. at least that way i can think im getting texts that im really not.
if you know me you know ive been in similair situations before. but not like this. my heart was never as involved as it is in this one.
it.
the furthest thing from my mind is anything other than the color of your eyes in my mirror. the way nothing felt closer than us. it wasnt just comfortable, it was trap doors when enemies tried to attack. it was snow days. sleeping in. skipping school almost as many times as you made my heart skip a beat.
i cant explain it, that was just it.
we hit on everything. in just about every way. there is nothing worth typing because its all just a space filler for something that will never have a word with enough meaning. with enough power. with enough life. the last six months have shown me everything i need to know in life. ive said it before but it just feels more real this time. i found something worth jumping off the ship for because i finally believed in the life jacket.
the waters were rough.
it used to be about just floating by until you made me realize its all so much more than that. its about more than just being okay. it never clicked until i woke up and wanted to be everything i could so that you could see every star you ever wished on. so that youd never have to hurt again or have to just get by. you deserve nothing less than every single light in every single town shining on you when you walk into a room. the moment everything made sense is the exact moment going back was too late. even the best things spoil and break into pieces over time.
sometimes it just isnt worth it to keep your head above water anymore.
dont wait, just go. and when you find yourself, please let me know. its not too late, just let go.
forget everything just for tonight we’ll sing like everyone when they’re alone.
one of my favorite musicians/singers/ main inspirations.
happy birthday mark hoppus.
well i guess this is growing up.
(Source: blink41)
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all the songs had it right.
i never quite knew what the heartbreak hotel was until you checked out early and walked out the door.
every single “forever” and “never leaving you” made me skeptical but love struck all at the same time. i dont believe in jinxes but if i did, nows the perfect time.
i was ashamed that i ever called those ones in the past love because they dont compare in the least to what you made me feel. theres so much emotion in this but im lacking everything at the same time. lightning struck and it wont happen again. most of the time it doesnt even happen like this the first time. its all a blur. i wasnt good enough when all i ever tried to do was pull down the stars for you.
you cant be mad at the beautiful sky just because it storms sometimes. you have to look through the grey and wait for the sun. its only covered for a while and it always looks more bright the moment after it clears up. this one’s for all the rainclouds.
and ill act like i dont care but on the inside, you’re all i breathe.
